Break of Stillness

Break of Stillness / Original: Monday, October 05, 2009 at 11:16pm

Why the hell cars are my own place to fear and learn?
Again I scream and your eyes are just closed before the turn
"Daddy! Stop it! Stop it" I shout and you're kind of deaf
I can't believe I see the certain fall because that miff
You open it and quick enough to stop the truck
I sit and wonder if you are crazy or just on crack
These times I can look at you only as a piece of shit
'Why couldn't you be someone else instead of it?'
By writing and splashing I keep spilling out hardest fucks
Even you can't stop yelling for a moment they're stayin' sucks
Your opinion worth nothing for me, I told you
You should know that no support is also no connection
Dyeing walls won't help you hide me and be the family's awesome
You made me, cope with the outcome!

Being suave and chatting neighbors hide scars in front of them only
And since you enjoy ignoring me you make us both too lonely
I am here, beside you! Why can't you glance me at least this time?
I exist, I wanna hear you! I didn't do any crime but being yours
Even commands you don't order me to carry out
No rebukes or love or anything I'd like to hear you shout
Eating alone, playing alone, living alone solely for myself
Despite you here it's like nobody beside me kept
"Daddy! I need you! Why does everything like that?
Maybe I'm apathetic but I want my childhood's father back
I don't know who created this distance, I really don't remember
But during all the silent years I'm still your family member"
"It's OK" I see your lips but feel you have so many things to say
By embrace I feel recharging, we'll live together another day