I Succumb

I Succumb / Original: Sunday, September 6, 2009 at 9:21pm

Fluctuating side to side
"RUINED" it resounds
"Haha", that evil laughter
"Pay for being careless"

That's the most sensitive place
The reason for not sleeping at night
The answer for depressed moment
I wasn't allowed to touch

I can't even see that
I'm not supposed to do
Freakin' out is not for sharing
And sharing is not for pain

Eradicated, that's known by all
Red herring won't make any different
Lying and wish doesn't change but fall
I made it, I understand every rage

Ineffectual supplications come nonstop
Groping for solution is still exist
Maybe absolution, something I won't meet
Awful, straight, I just lost my mate

It will become shaky and feeble
I guess it already does
Like running in circles 'till the end of time
That won't be accepted, exactly as a crime

Unstable on tattered chair
Know the world isn't fair
Daydream, while gazing air
Yet I depressed, forever I'll be care

Already dead, when I'm suddenly about to fade
No shelter, no room to hide
No way to turn churr into cheer
There's just one thing I wanna tell you here:

I'm a dickhead and an asshole
Another witless lame creature
A forlorn fool and tactless
And I don't deserve forgiveness

I love you
Or do I hate myself?